Love comforts tragedy

"I never promised you a rose garden. I never promised you perfect justice . . .The only reality I offer is challenge, and being well is being free to accept it or not at whatever level you are capable. I never promise lies, and the rose-garden world of perfection is a lie"

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April 30, 2012 / 1 note

I just get so peeved with my male therapist sometimes. I’m in a major fight/rut with my other therapist right now, but that’s another story.

EDIT: I am not rich. Insurance covers for both.

I finally begin to think I can trust him…and then he tells me that I’m skinnier than this one girl and I just think “Hell no”. 

And it’s true! I won’t say who (not all of you would know, but I don’t want to risk offense anyway), but it’s practically a fact (Google that shit!) that I’m not thinner than said girl.  It’s not even my distortion…her proportions are much tinier, and while he admits that she is too thin, he still thinks she’s about five to ten pounds ahead of me. 

Lalalala, I can’t hear you. 

Dunno if these are ED distortions, or if my therapist is lying, trying to make me feel better. And trust me, this would be a first. He was the one who called me a bitch, remember?

#recovery #thin #eating disorder #distortion #distorted thinking #therapist
April 26, 2012 / 1 note

#weight gain #eating disorder #thin #ana #mia #emaciated
April 14, 2012 / 4 notes

It’s not incredible. You’re killing yourself.

And it’s really upsetting to read because you don’t think I WANT to eat that little? Maybe even nothing at all? But I can’t. I have to eat because people care about me.

People care about you, too.  Eating under 550 calories a day is not something to smile or brag about.

Have you seen in person a woman 59lbs and dying? Have you heard a woman tell you that because she’s restricted so long, eating one meal again could KILL her? I have and it is fucking terrible. I can never forget those things.

Think about what you’re doing to yourself. 

#anorexia #bulimia #eating disorder #thin #fat #starve #purge #thinspirtation
April 3, 2012 / 5 notes

*These are all based on MY opinion, so no hate, please. Feel free to disagree.

1. Girl, Interrupted < I Never Promised You a Rose Garden

2. Identical > Crank

3. Thin < Biting Anorexia

4. The Hunger Games > Twilight  (Wouldn’t be a “Battle of the books” without this one!)

5. Phantom > Phantom in Manhattan

6. Pride and Prejudice and Zombies < Sense and Sensibility and Sea Monsters

7. Jane Eyre > Pride and Prejudice

*Girl, Interrupted - Susanna Kaysen

I Never Promised You a Rose Garden - Joanne Greenburg

Identical - Ellen Hopkins

Crank - Ellen Hopkins

Thin - Grace Bowman

Biting Anorexia - Lucy Howard-Taylor

The Hunger Games - Susanne Collins

Twilight - Stephanie Meyer

Phantom - Susan Kay

Phantom in Manhattan - Frederick Forsythe

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies - Seth Grahame-Smith

Sense and Sensibility and Sea Monsters - Ben H. Winters

Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte

Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen

#i never promised you a rose garden #books #girl interrupted #identical #crank #ellen hopkins #thin #biting anorexia #hunger games #twilight #phantom #phantom in manhattan #pride and prejudice and zombies #sense and sensibility and sea monsters #jane eyre #pride and prejudice #battle of the books
March 31, 2012 / 52 notes

— Grace Bowman, Thin

#grace bowman #thin #book #quote #eating disorders #anorexia #ana
March 31, 2012 / 2 notes

— Grace Bowman, Thin

#book #thin #grace bowman #quote #self
March 31, 2012 / 1 note

— Grace Bowman, Thin

#book #quote #thin #grace bowman #eating disorder #unhappiness
March 27, 2012 / 3 notes

— Grace Bowman, Thin

#thin #grace bowman #book #quote #eating disorder #depression #self
March 10, 2012 / 4 notes

Let me ask you, my dear followers.

No, this is not a trick question.

My answer: You know, you can be fit and thin.  So why not be fit?  Now, I’ve just to tell myself that so I can get myself to tone up.  Because there is such a thing as a flabby thin person…or so a certain voice in my head tells me.

Fit or Thin?

#fit #thin #health #healthy #trick question
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During the worst of my eating disorder, I was in love with Phantom of the Opera and became victim to the inevitable.  I compared myself to the lovely actress, Emmy Rossum who played the main role, Christine.  It was my goal to look as wonderfully beautiful and thin as her. 
It has been a few months now that I&#8217;ve realized that I had glamorized her during my eating disorder and that I unfairly wrote her off as another possible anorexic.  She was very young when she filmed Phantom (a.k.a still probably growing and maturing physically) and nowadays has a curvy, yet still thin, body.  And she is still beautiful, even with her hips (not large at all).  She also, according to Wikipedia (because I&#8217;m a girl with too much time on her hands) supports eating disorder awareness. 
Just a confession I thought I&#8217;d share because it was kind of swimming in my mind.
#phantom of the opera #emmy rossum #eating disorder #recovery #thin #healthy #confession
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