"I never promised you a rose garden. I never promised you perfect justice . . .The only reality I offer is challenge, and being well is being free to accept it or not at whatever level you are capable. I never promise lies, and the rose-garden world of perfection is a lie"
The only way I know how not to gain rapidly away from home is to restrict. I know I can’t go back home (in ten days) at a lower weight or even the same weight, but I’m so goddamn scared that I’m going to be up five or so pounds if I eat what I’m supposed to. And no, this fear is not irrational because I gained eight in a half pounds in two weeks a bit ago and that quite possibly COULD happen again. I am not posting all that I could about what’s going on, but I don’t want to keep consistently posting triggering/negative things on here.