July 2012
"All girls should wear makeup."
metaphoricheart:
Urm. No thanks. It’s itchy and I’d rather have the extra five minutes to read in the morning.
I am intolerably vain.
searching-for-a-purpose93:
Sometimes I just want to scream as loud as I can in hopes that I can get these voices out of my head and be free.
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“It sucks you in so it begins
Turning your insides out
Skin and bones,...”
– The Trews
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“And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall
Fall on your tongue like pixie...”
– Headfirst for Halos
Dad: You know, liars go to hell
Me: Mama, we all go to hell.
Pointless Blog Is Pointless: liewithmymistakes: i... →
liewithmymistakes:
i really don’t understand why non-religious people who are told by religious people “i’ll be praying for you” and get even the slightest bit annoyed. these people are wishing you well and expressing their wishes to look out for you like jesus it’s like getting mad at…
June 2012
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Healthy reminder
Yep, after that depressing-as-hell rant. *I am still a hypocrite*
Everyone has fat on their body. There is a difference between having fat and being fat.
Also, for that matter, I know when I look at certain places on my body like my arms and thighs, I get discouraged and disgusted by all of the “flab”. Well guess what? Some of that “flab” might just be muscle. Not the...
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I don’t know why I think I’m so much prettier when I’m sickly thin. Even the gray skin, the protruding bones…I don’t know why I find that so appealing when it comes to my own appearance. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t take pleasure in seeing others starving themselves to bones.
But I see other girls nowadays that trigger me and I get this...
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I'm so upset because I was drinking coffee when I...
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There’s a difference between seeing emaciated girls online in pictures…and seeing them in “real life”.
This is why I don’t like going out. Trigger galore.
yeptea:
Goodbye courage
Hello sadness
Me: I'm sorry
Person: Don't be.
Me: I'm still sorry
Person: Stop saying sorry!
Me: Oh...
Me:
Me:
Me: Sorry.
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Hello sadness
Shit. Los Camp is semi in my area tonight (few hours away, close enough). Night goes down the drain.
[Cue Mckenna staring up at the ceiling silently screaming, “WHY??”]
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“Women are like teabags.
We don’t know our true strength
until we are in...”
– Eleanor Roosevelt
(It was tea, guys. I had to do it)
Anonymous asked: I hope you choose to be happy, Mckenna, because you do deserve to be. You are beautiful, kind, caring, and loved. The world is definitely not always fun, but it's what we have to work with. There is goodness and happiness all around if you can open your eyes and heart enough to accept it. I hope you stay strong and fight hard for recovery! I know you can make it! <3
Challenging myself to more than 8 oz of decaf tea because it’s beautiful and I’m thirsty.
When I really want to purge...
avery422:
I ask myself
What will happen if I’m fat? Why does it matter?
What will happen if I’m skinny? Why does it matter?
In the end it doesn’t matter because it’s all just on the surface…
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I take the SATs over and over again because the scores aren’t good enough; they simply aren’t good enough.
I keep relapsing because I was never enough, my weight wasn’t low enough, and I wasn’t happy enough.
Perfectionism. Screws with you.
Like that can justify it all! Mckenna, it’s okay to relapse again because you never were that sick anyway. Once you get to ____...
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One way to look at it
You know what I have to say to the immense bloating in my stomach from the rapid weight gain?
HOLLA, ORGANS! I’m gaining fat to protect you <3
hetastuck:
Wow did you know
That sometimes when someone gets a compliment and they say things like, “‘I’m not pretty, but thanks.’I’m really not’, ‘I don’t think i look nice’, etc.
They aren’t always fishing for compliments
Some people literally believe they aren’t
“It is the sanity of life that makes us mad”
– Gabrielle Aplin, Lying to the Mirror
“There is a particular genus of teenagers who break out into song spontaneously...”
– Lin-Manuel Miranda
creator of the Tony Award winning musical, In the Heights
(via mylife-in-widescreen)
I know my primary therapist is hurt by it, but I feel so much more comfortable talking to my neuro psych guy. I trust him; I don’t tell him everything, but I trust him with most things. The best thing about him is that he is completely honest; brutally honest. So honest that he isn’t afraid to hurt my feelings, if it means he’s being completely honest with me. And yes, he HAS...
