“Thomas Edison’s last words were, “It’s very beautiful over there.” I don’t know where there is, but I believe it’s somewhere, and I hope it’s beautiful.”— Looking For Alaska, John Green (via ibelieveitsomewhere)
I don’t know whether to take this as a compliment, or to be offended as it somewhat implies that I’m not skinny as I am…which scares me to no extent, considering I’m hanging on to a 16.9 BMI. (Not good, I know. I know it’s not “healthy”. Don’t mistake me for a fool; I’m no thinspo artist)
He was smiling when he said it, so it can’t be an insult, right?
I don’t know. I just saw the post when searching through “recovery” and it always just kind of stuns me to hear of people dying from anorexia, though I’ve heard before that people have…it’s just different hearing it from real people who have really lost someone, you know?
Sorry if I come off as false because I posted an RIP for a girl I didn’t even know, but we’re all people in the end, right?
“Can I hide my stupid hunger, fake some confidence and cheer, “wish I were here”? Wish I were here.”—Natalie Goodman, “Wish I Were Here” from Next to Normal by Tom Kitt & Brian Yorkey (via serenechaos)
“My best friend is a man with a lab coat and a grin
I hold my shaking hand and he gives me medicine
It almost makes me feel at home
but they slowly steal my soul
I tell him I still feel alone
‘Don’t worry someday I promise you will feel whole.’”—Unknown
If you haven’t already, for those suffering with an eating disorder or would like to become more informed, I highly recommend the book Biting Anorexia by Lucy Howard-Taylor.
I found it to be a very accurate and articulate read into the struggles faced when battling an eating disorder and the bitter, but rewarding truth about the path to recovery.
*I just finished this book. Finally. The author is/was only eighteen, too. For some reason, that just made her story easier to relate to…not to mention it gives me hope that someday maybe I could write such a piece worth publication.