Oh the irony of a weight loss center with the name “Inner Wellness”…
Three male voices I fell in love before I even saw the men’s faces: - Norbert Leo Butz from the Wicked soundtrack - Aaron Tveit from the Next To Normal soundtrack - singer from Nine Inch Nails (see I’m so lame that I cant even remember his name) in their song “Head like a hole”. Moral: appearance isn’t everything, fo realz. And I was like, ten years ild when I was obsessed with Norbert...
I am not talking to you now through the medium of custom, conventionalities, nor...– Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte (via itswordmusic)
My mom’s boyfriend unwrapped a mini snickers, and tapped me on the shoulder for me to watch him throw it in the air and catch it in his mouth. Silly goof, but at least he got it.
No matter who you follow, Doctor Who will always...
If you've received eating disorder treatment from...
chopstickchick: bravegirleating: I’ve been looking into their treatment facility and have an admissions screening with them this week. Nothing is set in stone, but there’s a possibility I may go there for treatment. I’m curious as to whether or not people have found their program to be helpful, supportive, etc. Let me know, please! I went there last year. It was a very good experience for...
fishingboatproceeds: the-blog-of-anne-frank: I just realized that “pun intended” is a pun on “unintended” and I’m literally about to gouge my eyes out I’m so angry This. Changes. Everything.
Anonymous asked: so are you a healthy weight/bmi now?
Awkward explaining to my new GP that the scabs/wounds/scars on my back are self-inflicted. Luckily, he didn’t ask any stupid questions, about the self-harm OR my other issues. Apparently I’m going to get some tests done to check out my liver and kidneys because of pains I have in my abdomen sometimes, but I’m just glad that I didn’t have to fall into one of those...
If there is a God, He will have to beg my forgiveness.– A phrase that was carved on the walls of a concentration camp cell during WWII by a Jewish prisoner (via ametsu)
Anonymous asked: I wish we were real life friends. Your such a nice, funny, genuine, honest person.
I wish I was as cute as Pooh-Bear. When I say things, I usually just come off as a snarky biznatch. Comes in handy sometimes, but other times I think it’d be nice if people actually liked to be around me.
Good good good news!
I think I’m off weight-gain! I don’t have to drink my one Ensure a day anymore. My dietician says some of the gain was probably hydration or something because I had kind of a large gain, but WHATEVER. Besides some bloat in the stomach, I don’t feel much different in my body. WOOHOO. Cool.
Just another morning
I just had therapy less than 48 hours ago, so I’m not going to apologize that I don’t want to haul butt on a drive an hour away to another therapy appointment. And if we’re driving anywhere, I’d rather us just drive to the gym to weigh me (no scales at home). That way, my mom can tell them the verdict and we don’t have to drive for hours upon end today. My weight...
bloodysigils: do you ever cry because you’ve somehow managed to gain a truly fucking amazing person as your friend? and just think about how fucking blessed you are for their existence and how in some previous life you must have done something fucking amazing to deserve them in this life? DO YOU? I can say this about a lot of people in my life and that entices just an…indescribably good...
I feel so loved. I was just thinking that I needed...
Rambling about current read
It’s crazy how much I had started to hate this book for the first 100-150 pages (The Other Normals by Ned Vizzini) but now I’m pretty into it, almost finding it hard to put down. The intense fantastical aspect of the book turned me off at first, but once I got used to it and learned some more about the world Vizzini created, I started to dig it a bit more. I still think it’s...
Okay, so Ellen DeGeneres was in my dream last night, and her wife was there also, but instead of Portia keeping her name, her name was Dr. Who. Either way, “Dr. Who” comforted me when some random girls called me fat, so it was an interesting dream.
soberjunkie: I just want to spend all my time reading books. Can’t my job be reading? I haven’t any time for anything else. Nothing makes me as happy as books do. Oh, tea on the side too.
My sister and I were talking in the car and she was saying how she knows that body-size doesn’t necessarily indicate whether one has or doesn’t have an eating disorder but she’s frustrated because she knows she can’t simply walk up to perhaps a more obvious case and confront them/help them because she doesn’t know what to say that wouldn’t be wrong which is why...
Why does everything seem so hopeless at night?
I just realized I'm just like, finger-length away...
I’m such a weight-gain loser, but with my crap-ton of calories, I should be able to maintain soon enough so WOOHOO. Just want to get this over with, and I only had a bit to gain. Though what I think is a lot of calories versus an actual large amount of calories is apparently a bit skewed but whatever.
thepensivebrony: “you shouldn’t be depressed, people have it worse than you” finally, after years of searching, the person with the worst life ever is found. formally, they are granted permission to be sad. but only them. only they have earned it. no sads for anyone else at all ever
Anonymous asked: That sucks. Hide your journal under your mattress or something! I hope everything works out soon - I know I hate the family tension when something awkward like this happens
Anonymous asked: I'm sorry I would be really mad also. How did u find out? He might not have read much u know? Even though I'm guessing the primary reason for the anger is just the violation of privacy in the first place.
*Warning: Strong language is used What the FUCK was he thinking?? You can’t just read your daughter’s journal. No fucking way. What the fuck? Fuck! My dad read my journal while he was here. HOW did he think that was okay? And I didn’t even hear it from him. I’m so pissed right now. I’m embarrassed because it’s my personal journal where I write anything I...