You Can't Turn Up the Volume of Words

Does anyone else have any bad memories associated with certain foods? I have this thing with peanut butter. Not only is it a fear food because of the contents (details not necessary) but I also have a bad memory with it.

I was near my lowest, and I was standing in the kitchen in a form-fitting tank top. I didn’t wear much that was form-fitting even back then. My brother came down the stairs, and he just gave me this long stare that seemed to be asking, “What the hell have you done to yourself?”.

However, that didn’t stop him from, five seconds later, calling me fat for eating a teaspoon of peanut butter. When I got mad at him, he defended himself, “Oh, you don’t look fat, but you’re eating like you are.”

Story-time ends.

So, freshman year, for a school assignment, I drew the album cover of My Chemical Romance’s “Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge”. Not to brag, but it’s kind of epic. The teacher wanted to keep it afterwards, but I just said, “Uh..I’d kind of like to keep it. Sorry”

I still have that baby. I cherish it.

I look too healthy for how mentally unhealthy I feel.

Reblogged from lovingmelivinglife

lovingmelivinglife:

i just feel fat

(Source: im-all-for-believing)

I am obsessed

With finding Phantom of the opera sound-alikes that are NOT covers. So far, I have two:

“Cold” by The Cure (something about the drums in the beginning and such..)

“Dancing Dead” by Avenged Sevenfold (the beginning music..tell me that doesn’t sound like the beginning phantom riff. Seriously. I dare you)

If any of you Phans out there have any other ideas, please tell me. Hehe, as I said, I am a bit obsessed. I don’t look for them, but if I happen to find them, I freak out hardcore.

Another anorexia post

*Darn, I hate that word*

Losing weight rapidly/being at a low weight is just a symptom of anorexia.

Anorexia is not a petty diet gone too far. It is a mental illness. You wouldn’t look at me and guess that I have anorexia. You would think, “Oh, some random girl in a big t-shirt.” Big whoop. However, I torture myself every day with every single thought that passes through my brain. Not everything is about the food or the number on the scale. We think about those things because we’re avoiding the real issues; those feelings of worthlessness, sadness, inadequacy, and even feeling like the world would be a heck of a lot better without you in it. Why? It’s different for everyone; no one has the exact same story. We may not be the only ones who struggle, but we are all individuals, and we will not let this thing consume us.